solemn

i still have a hurdle of anxiety i need to jump. the occasion for it's resolution occurs tomorrow. i'm SO tired of drama y'all. seriously, i'm growing weary.

mike went to the hospital, via ambulance today, so welp, that was awesome. he's okay, it's a gastrointestinal infection, and he's home, but lawd, the drama, the DRAMA! it did not add too many points to my scale of well-being today. in fact, it made the levels drop a bit. i was at work and helpless to do anything, because i couldn't leave work. i wasn't happy about it, and wasn't happy leaving it all to his mother. i don't think i need to explain why, it just didn't feel good. she's not a bad person, i just felt inadequate.

i saw some of my girlfriends tonight, so that was cool. we had a few drinks, and somehow i ended up walking out of the bar without a bill. i have awesome friends.

so tomorrow, my final hurdle to cross before i can finally see a clear horizon. i'm praying and i am all nerves. i can't be too flippant about things in my life. it has never worked out in my advantage, so i take EVERYTHING seriously. so, i hope and pray with all my might, that tomorrow will just only provide a little jostle, and that i continue to can move on with trying to figure things out, without having to COMPLETELY regroup. all i have to say is PLEEEEEEAAAASSSSE!

whew, enough of that.

to tomorrow and the future.

amen.