Pre-gaming

We had Mother's Day breakfast for dinner this evening, since we are spending the actual holiday with our moms tomorrow.  We are moving soon, and I REALLY should have done some organizing/purging, but I was at home with my little boy and chose to snuggle and just breathe him in.  When his big sister came home, we just hung out on the couch.  At one point I had #1 on my left and #2 on my right.  I was in a little people sandwich, and it was DELICIOUS!  

We took baths early, and I put down Baby D early.  He wasn't happy about it, but WHO CARES!  Kidding, but ain't nobody got time for a cranky, sleepy baby.  TO BED YOU GO!  I watched that dang Pioneer Woman on Food Network and made some completely ridiculous cheesy bread to go with our breakfast.  As I write this, I am drinking some vino, watching reality TV and just lazing about.  I really need to be in bed because we are getting up at o'dark thirty tomorrow to go to church with MIL.  

I'm ready to move and get it over with, but I'm not really looking forward to the moving process.  It is ALWAYS overwhelming.  I just want everything to go smoothly.  I want to move in with less, and start off more organized.  Easier said than done.  But I'm ready... I'm ready for the change.  I'm choosing not to approach this change with apprehension, but with expectations of joy and success.  I gotta change my mindset if good things are going to happen.  This house is gorgeous, and I'm glad that this is a house my children may remember.  Plus, there's a pool in the community!  :-)

I just can't wait to own forever home.  I know it's coming.  Probably sooner than we think. We are just on the horizon.  Can't wait for a new day.  But for right now, we prepare, we plan, and we set expectations, and enjoy life in the meanwhile.  Every step will be in preparation for our future.  Pre-gaming...

Happy Mother's Day everyone!

Hey... I meant to call... but...

So!  Time has passed, I am older, and I have another child.  Life is interesting.  I am 37 (whaaa?), I have an almost kindergartener, and a 6 month old, and I'm married to my BEST friend.  We are poor, but we are happy.  These little people sustain us, and put smiles on our faces every day.

I never thought I would be this person.  I thought I would be big and grand, for I was ME!  HA!  Life has been rough but fair in relieving me of that delusion.  I sometimes welcome life's wallops, for it provides me with clarity and levity.

I don't know what this is to be, but I know that I need someplace to write.  Even if it's just me reading it, I know that it's public and someone can read it if they have a slow night.  All I know is that I want to write, and that I want to share myself on a public platform.  If I have 4 readers, well then I will consider it a ROUSING success!  But plain and simple?  I need to write.  I need to vent, I need to share, and I hope to build a community, so that I know that I'm not completely batsh*t crazy.  My in-person experiences have led me to believe that I currently don't need to be committed, but that I do need to stop giving so much power to those who I don't know, but deem them worthy by appearance.  Quick!  Someone send me an e-mail from an African prince so I can send him $1K to free up our $5M!

I have for too long cared what other people think.  I know that I'm a good person, that I have worth, and my ideas are worthy of consideration.  The people who love me agree, and let me tell you, those are good people, so... that must mean that I am only selling myself short. (whew!  trying not to drop the laptop like it's on fire...)

I plan to try to come here regularly.  I plan to be humble, and I plan to document my successes and failures here.  I plan to learn.  Because I only have this one life, and I'm tired of wasting it being scared.  Soon to follow?  Some straight up BS... but it will be MINE!  HUZZAH!

So.

Here. it. goes.