This stuff just hurts. It has made me cry. Regardless of what may have happened, what happened to "innocent until proven guilty in a court of law"? I hate that skin color allows for an unlawful speedy right to trial... Let me just say this: Everyone has hopes, dreams, and aspirations. Racism is unfortunately inherent in American culture due to societal and familial indoctrination (on both sides). It is what it is. That taints the hopes and dreams that we all have. Do me a favor everyone:
Remember your mother, your father, grandparents, siblings, etc. Remember how you stayed up talking, and remembering all the good times from the past, and talked about the future like it was a given? Your safety was assumed. Then remember that more than a few families are missing someone deeply, all because their skin was other than peach, and they were judged before they even got into a courtroom. Realize that they have been judged as evil, just because they were born of a heritage that robbed them of their dignity, indoctrinated them to be submissive, made education a crime, and marked them through the census, and then robbed them of their earned-through-blood right to vote. How are those who disenfranchised supposed to act? Isn't that how Anerica was founded? So why are the ones whose blood was spent in building its wealth not afforded the same dignity as the founding fathers? WE WERE STOLEN, SOLD AND BROUGHT HERE AS SLAVES! We have been marked ever since. How is that fair? You read that shit, and you tell me how it is fair that we have suffered and systematically been subjected to repeated indignity due to the indelible mark of our heritage? I fucking dare you.
But really, I fucking dare you to be a better person, to get out of your fucking head and consider those around you. The funny thing about humans is that we pretty much have the same equipment,but with different camoflauge. So if YOU'RE cold? GUESS WHAT? If your chill is dictated by the weather, the human next to you is probably experiencing the same thing, regardless of the color of their skin. Remember your family and loved ones, and remember HUMANITY! Remember that we all know love associated with our family and the pain associated with the loss of it. We all feel the same shit, why is one more valued than the other?
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
Hurt and Damaged
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Saturday, August 16, 2014
truth
Who is capable of so much more? This country, its leadership, and its government, to include the legislators and the executors (no pun intended) of the law, the media, and its citizens. All of us are capable of not judging on appearance, of having an open ear and heart, and having the guts to make a difference. All of the stuff we don't like? We can change. Everyone who is not in the fray, are unaware of the deep injustice that people who are not as fortunate, must suffer through everyday. You are not in it, you do not understand, so therefore, do not even attempt to try to have an opinion. Unless you have lived in the shoes of those who are suffering, you should keep your mouth shut. If you do choose to say something, it should be in support of helping those who are suffering, because you are a human being, and we all must share this Earth, and we all must be stewards of it.
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Saturday, May 10, 2014
Pre-gaming
We had Mother's Day breakfast for dinner this evening, since we are spending the actual holiday with our moms tomorrow. We are moving soon, and I REALLY should have done some organizing/purging, but I was at home with my little boy and chose to snuggle and just breathe him in. When his big sister came home, we just hung out on the couch. At one point I had #1 on my left and #2 on my right. I was in a little people sandwich, and it was DELICIOUS!
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Friday, May 9, 2014
Hey... I meant to call... but...
So! Time has passed, I am older, and I have another child. Life is interesting. I am 37 (whaaa?), I have an almost kindergartener, and a 6 month old, and I'm married to my BEST friend. We are poor, but we are happy. These little people sustain us, and put smiles on our faces every day.
I never thought I would be this person. I thought I would be big and grand, for I was ME! HA! Life has been rough but fair in relieving me of that delusion. I sometimes welcome life's wallops, for it provides me with clarity and levity.
I don't know what this is to be, but I know that I need someplace to write. Even if it's just me reading it, I know that it's public and someone can read it if they have a slow night. All I know is that I want to write, and that I want to share myself on a public platform. If I have 4 readers, well then I will consider it a ROUSING success! But plain and simple? I need to write. I need to vent, I need to share, and I hope to build a community, so that I know that I'm not completely batsh*t crazy. My in-person experiences have led me to believe that I currently don't need to be committed, but that I do need to stop giving so much power to those who I don't know, but deem them worthy by appearance. Quick! Someone send me an e-mail from an African prince so I can send him $1K to free up our $5M!
I have for too long cared what other people think. I know that I'm a good person, that I have worth, and my ideas are worthy of consideration. The people who love me agree, and let me tell you, those are good people, so... that must mean that I am only selling myself short. (whew! trying not to drop the laptop like it's on fire...)
I plan to try to come here regularly. I plan to be humble, and I plan to document my successes and failures here. I plan to learn. Because I only have this one life, and I'm tired of wasting it being scared. Soon to follow? Some straight up BS... but it will be MINE! HUZZAH!
So.
Here. it. goes.
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Sunday, May 27, 2012
progress
You know how you're 8 and 16 seems like a glamorous age, and then you turn 16 and 21 seems like that's where the action is? Then you realize Icehouse is the most disgusting beer ever and you determine that you actually have standards? So... IMAGINE how you feel at 35! I drink mostly pinot grigio and I look at how cute my kid looks when she sleeps... WILD!
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Friday, May 25, 2012
moving on
we are moving to the suburbs and i cannot wait. a deck, room for little feet to roam, a kitchen to make meals in, to mingle in, rooms full of light, and a prominent place for the christmas tree. life is already good, but it's about to be all that i really want it to be. a house full of love, me and my little family. the world is wide open to us, and for once in my life, i'm excited. excited about living, excited about opportunities, growth, moving forward, the future. i used to be so scared, and honestly sometimes still am, and it was overwhelming. i felt like i could not go on, that everything was going to go wrong, and that i didn't deserve happiness, and i was never going to have it. it was so dark, my friends, so dark. but i have this little light that calls me "mommy" and she is the reason i live. along with with my husband and my family, i really have it made. i got the best people in my life and i'm so grateful to them. realizing that i only get to do this once, and i get to live and love these special people who have truly blessed my life. wow. it is such an honor and i feel so privileged, and if you knew these folks, you'd understand. they never let me fall and kept me afloat when i couldn't tread any longer. especially my husband. he kept me here too. i've never met anyone who believes in me so much and who is so selfless. he wants and loves ME, my true authentic self. i don't know what i would do without him. he is my rock. i'm so grateful he is mine.
i'm not sure when the light came back, but it did, and god, it feels good. i don't have to run away from my past, it happened, it's there, it's not going anywhere. i did things i'm not proud of, but, i learned. it hurt like hell (and still hurts), but i learned. i know i'm a good person, and i don't have to be defined by my past. i need to shed my shame, and stop letting it run my life. everyone tells me a good person, but for the longest time i didn't believe them, and i really don't know why....but i'm choosing to believe them now. i'm choosing to believe in myself. it is scary, but i'm gonna keep going. i'm choosing to get involved in life, and start living and stop letting things happen to me. i'm going to dream and plan for the future, that i KNOW will come and it will be wonderful, because i worked hard for it.
it's a good feeling, this hope. and i choose to embrace it, along with faith, and i'm moving on...
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Tuesday, April 17, 2012
mortal enemies...
So... you know how it is. You drink some coffee in the morning, have that full belly before lunch, and want to "clear the decks" if you will, before you sink your teeth into your "sandwich bread" (Arnold's Sandwich-Thins). IF! you're lucky, you may get to hit that biggest stall at the end, before you blow the whistle for the day... literally and figuratively speaking.
But, we all know what happens. Whether it be at 8:30 am, 11:00 am, 2:00 pm, 2:07 pm, 2:08 pm, 3:13 pm, 3:17 pm, 4:03 pm, etc. That b*tch is always there. Who's that b*tch? The same evil person who props the door open as you're wiping... Yes! That's right! THE CLEANING LADY!!! I like to think they synchronize their watches with Satan. Because who would be so mean to allow the WHOLE WORLD hear what you pee-stream sounds like and how long it takes you to get your, at sometimes literally, your sh*t together?!
I know it's your job lady. But seriously? We are about to fight! I try to be consistent, and adjust to your schedule, but you are either getting slower or moving faster. Either way: No BUENO!
So, in closing: *BBBBRRRRRRRRRPPPPPPPLLLLLLLLLLLLLFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTTTT* Sorry. Knock First.
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